simple pleasures of life

2011-12-24T22:59:00.001+08:00

Hey my darling(:
omg dar super long never send me loooooong sms le aww~~ mmm dar its okay la,i also realise dar also never wantedto hurt me on purpose de..yeah i guess dar is right?i am a bit selfish:/ but only towards dar..cos like,barely me and dar can go back bedok together ma..so bibi thought dardar will send bibi to old house..somemore baby actually still scared of that guy there..cos a few weeks back i just saw him there))): then also cos dar say if baby go then he go,then in service dar also make it like he not going ler ma:/ i'm sorry..am i very selfish?): if i am,just let me know,i'm really sorry:/ dardar i really love you,I'm sorry for rejecting and not picking up your calls again:'( i didn't mean it): *gets down on knees and look up to dar and apologise and ask for forgiveness*

and also dar thank you so much for caring deeply about my safety and whether or not i was happy..and dar,thank you for not regreting that you never go..(: dar I enjoyed myself today really that we can spend our christmas eve together and also you can get along with my church friends(: i love you my laogong. ai ni 1314 <3 mmmMUACKS!

~oh,and,today really pretty?why o?n.n~

2011-12-08T22:47:00.001+08:00

hey dardar(:

bibi long time never post hor^^ dar even longer never post!but its okay,dar, its 081211,2310 now..means we've been together for 32 months now and counting!hehe look at our LOVE COUNTER.never stopped before^^ dardar thank you so much for being mine, and keeping mine as yours. recently,i realised the way dardar treat baby nowadays very different le..but this time,its a SUPER GOOD DIFFERENCE!!!dar recently so sweet to baby!as sweet as last time,and sometimes sweeter than last time o!!hehe dar,bibi super busy tonight but still find time to blog for dar!! HAPPY 2 YEARS 8 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY MY BOY!<333333 dar I'm so glad we are still so deeply in love with one another:') people say 'last long'.i dont want!i want last forever with dar o!hehe i sound mushy~ YOU LIKE MUSHY MUSHY RIGHT.BETTER SMILE LIKE SIAO NOW HORHOR!hehe^^ aishiteru<3 sa rang hae yo.wo ai ni.Je' Taime. I LOVE YOU. mmmmmMUACKS *baobao*

2011-10-11T23:02:00.003+08:00

found this in my com thanks to skype upgrade:')

first photo..

hehe so blur looking^^

this is my favourite photo..so sweet<3

dardar this one smile so gentle..i like<3

poor dardar sick:'(

i force dar show me he take temperature,heart pain

hmm...CHEESE!:D

haha..this one is quite recent i remember..:')

2011-10-09T10:13:00.004+08:00

HAPPY SIX MONTH ANNIVERYSARY DARDAR!!

hehe..so fast we tgt half a year ler..

080409 - 081009 2310..

hmm i cant believe i cried last night after 2310..

first time i srsly cry out becos very happy wor..

really!nvr before that happened..

hahas.but after that eyes pain. ._.

so smart la me.

i cant believe we half a year tgt le..

im really happy..

thanks dar for everything..n.n

remember this?(: you came my house that day..helped my mama make her blog.

then we took this photo:') this photo was take exactly two years ago from today.

it was so sweet(: as though bearbear is our baby,then we kiss him^^

it was the first time i cried over you because i was purely happy to be in love with you:')

last night,once again,i cried.i was looking at 080411 photos:'(

in every photo,i could see the sadness in our eyes.

how unwilling we were to let it be the last day.

but even through the sadness,we cherished every moment of it together..

and till this date,we still love one another,right?

i can only be sure that i love you,but i know,you do too,don't you?:'(

2 and a half years;2 years 6 months;30 months;913 days;WJ & MEL ♥ 080409 2310 ♥

2011-09-18T00:24:00.007+08:00

to tell you the truth,i've been dating a guy.but somehow,everyday,i still think of you every night,before i sleep.i hug bearbears to sleep,kiss them,and sleep beside your jacket.i've been fighting with myself.every night.i miss you so much,yet i tell myself its just me not used to not talking to someone i've been close to for two years.but i've come to realise that i should stop suppressing the fact that i still have feelings for you.even after all that we've put one another through.all the hurt,unhappiness.but most importantly,the love,joy,memories we created when we were in love.i've been asking myself,given a chance to love you again,will i?and i think you should know what's my answer.but when i realise the obstacles between us,it hurts me so badly.why can't we be together without any rejections and dis-acceptance?:'( i really miss you.when you stopped texting me,i was so sure your feelings for me faded.i missed you so badly.i texted you,and you didn't reply.i cried and cried.i dont know why.i cant cry over other guys.but that night,when we talked on the phone,when i realised how much i longed to hear your voice,your hug,being in your arms again,kissed by you,my tears and emotions overwhelmed me.i couldn't control it.these emotions were not able to be with-held back.somehow,a really big part of my heart is still with you.and that's a definite.and remember,when i used to tell you how i always think about our future together?when this guy talked to me about him seeing his future with me,no image came to me.i couldn't picture a future with him.but then,when i thought about my future,guess what i saw?images i used to have when i thought about OUR future together,having a house of our own,a family made from two of us.me and you.i still care for you so deeply.just now,jinxian went to my church after i had already left.he talked to the guy i'm "dating" cos they used to be friends.and the guy told jinxian how much he didn't like you and detested you.when i heard it,i flew into a rage and got so angry!at first,i couldn't explain to myself why i got so angry and upset when he said such things about you.then i realised,that just like last time,i still hated it when people said mean things about you,and i still care for you just as much right now..ytd,when i was using my lifeframe,i stumbled upon the photos we took together in my school a few months back.when i saw them,immediately,i smiled.we were still such a happy couple..so i got tempted today,and i sent you all the photos.i just miss you.i miss how we loved each other without boundaries and limits.how we were willing to sacrifice anything and everything to be together,in love,hold our hands and walk down the path together.i miss you hugging me to sleep,lying on you in the bus rides home.the moments when we couldn't bear to say bye bye for the night when you sent me home.swimming with you..your warm hugs,when our lips met.when i felt your lips on my cheeks and forehead,when we used to smell each other,play with one another's noses.watched cartoons we watched together over and over again.listen to music together.just went out and spent time wasting the day away together.chiong-ing for O's together.getting caught for sitting too close in class..feeding one another during recess..eating the same stingray every single recess without getting bored..i just realised how easily i typed these memories down..none of them have faded..all etched in my mind,in my heart.i haven't forgotten any memory i have of you.i wonder if its the same for you..?

while typing all those and uploading these photos,i was crying,my heart hurt.

did you feel the same way?have you still cry over me?i don't know..and only you will know..

i love you.

2010-10-29T20:18:00.001+08:00

hello hello hello.
just realised how dead my blog is after not using the computer for AGESSSS.
so yeah,its o's fever now._.

2010-07-21T21:42:00.002+08:00

thank you.for opening my eyes.which was blinded by so many lies.from now on,please dont ever,again,tell me that you'll change to better,and treat me better.because i know myself.i know that i'll just let myself trust you each time.and when it all boils down,my heart just gets broken over and over and over again.i really dont think that this heart of mine can take anymore.maybe you could see it as im begging you.whatsoever,please.please dont hurt me anymore.and dont make promises you dont intend to keep.empty promises.i cant control myself from trusting your words each time.so please control yourself.stop that mind of yours that tells me you'll change,you'll this,you'll that.because its your mind that tells you to say those things just for that moment to make me happy,it was never from your heart.you might disagree with what i'm saying here.but trust me,im the one who is receiving all these lies.so i'll feel it.i'll feel it when you actually truly mean it,and when you dont at all.so please,do me this favour.i'll be very very very grateful and thankful.

2010-06-23T00:05:00.002+08:00

today today today.really was a roller coaster ride in a way.morning,woke up with a really bad throat.
and flu kinda gotten worse.but the upside was that honey was already in school superrrr early :D so i rushed and chased after the bus skipping breakfast again(: BROUGHT TWIN'S LOVE COOKIES TO SCHOOL :D met honey in sch:D thn we both went for our lessons :\ honey left earlier): but its alright(: MDM AZIAN LET THE CLASS OFF AT 12.35 INSTEAD OF 2PM :D great isn't it? so journeyed to bedok inter with lucas,ghim,weilun,luke & zheng wei for lunch(: uber weird when i went to buy shoes la can._. five guys waiting for me while i try the sizes.sooooo ps.worse is?the laces were loose,and halfway walking,we had to sit down,and lucas tried tying my shoelaces XD haha,failed though,so i tied them myself(: after which,we walked back to sch.went for council NYAA stuffies.THEN.the roller coaster went wayyyy down.had a big fight with dar :'( really bad ): in the end,dar came sch find me,and we patched things up!:D then,went walking around school finding things to do._. the best part!!19 councillors playing captain ball together!
vanishaa's team: vann,me,lucas,joedy,nasuha,jane,stuart,charmaine :D
shona's team: shona,luke,syafiqah,zakiah,weilun,zhengwei,zaid,caline,ghim :D
funnnnliciiousssss~
one of the best games we councillors have together(: love you guys sooo much(: made me fall in love with council all over again(: of course,the ex seniors were there too(: yuanting :D chee hean :D edwin :D and the others :D all made things so funnnnnn :D had a loong talk with mr wong in ava while helping out in the confidence walk(: left school at around 11pm (: daddy fetched me home!!woohoo :D haha i seem to be so high now =P but my feet has like countless blisters,but its definitely all worth(: nights pweeeeples=]

2010-05-13T21:18:00.002+08:00

ONE YEAR ONE MONTH FOUR DAYS
teehee.lets talk about last saturday :D
dar came early in the morning to fetch me to sch,
haha he told his mama 8am start lesson xP
hmm so we went for breakfast at ntuc thr.
thn bought stuffs stuffs for dar to eat cos i know he confirm hungry halfway de =X
i'll skip the lecture part cos he posted it already=]
during chinese,was like keep waiting for his sms..
cos he promise me he'll msg cos no lesson mah.
thn mood started to get pretty low.
after lesson,he made me go bedok inter myself to meet him thr
when i got thr,only saw jx
hmm thn he lie to me wj lost his wallet ._.
his acting super lousy btw =X
yeah thn dar came from behind and surprise me with flowers :D
haha although i was guessing they were up to smth,
but still quite surprised xP
haha compared to first time,
i think first time more shocked XD
cos that time not expected at all and ALL THE WAY AT CLARK QUAY CENTRAL.
haha,but it was really sweet of dar=]
really made me happy happy happy.
hmm thn dar and i spend the day tgt at tamp,
WATCH IRON MAN 2.
hha,nice.
thn after movie,rushed to tamp1 to get dar's mama a mother's day cake :D
we ended up going to disney & made BAG TAGS!
heeeeeee~mine is baby miney mouse;his is baby mickey mouse :D :D :D
hahahahahaha,AFTER THAT thn we bought the cake :D
hmm i ended up at tuition like at FIVE.
when my tuition started at FOUR.ends at SIX.
SMART.I KNOW. :D
hhhhhaha :D thankfully,dar's mama was super shocked and was so happy :D
made me happy too=]
so yeah,I LOVE YOU DAR!
ONE YEAR ONE MONTH FOUR DAYS AND COUNTING!!

2010-04-01T22:34:00.002+08:00

THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I SICK TILL LIKE THAT.
IT ALL STARTED WITH A FEVER LAST THURSDAY.
THEN I TOTALLY LOST MY APPETITE THOROUGHLY.
THEN IT BECAME GASTRIC.
THEN IT BECAME SERIOUS BAD CASE OF GASTRIC.
IN TOTAL,
WENT TO THE FIRST DOCTOR TWICE.
SECOND DOCTOR ONCE.
AND WENT TO TO HOSPITAL YESTERDAY.
IF I STILL REMAIN THIS BAD TOMORROW,
MY PARENTS ARE GOING TO BRING ME TO THE HOSPITAL AGAIN.

2010-03-07T22:01:00.002+08:00

HELLO EVERYMEOW~
mrawr~hello pweeple=]today is a greeeeat day=] had fun with LEX GUACEMOLE and AFIFAH HULA:D haha,best people everrrr~
im lazy so,
we met at macs,
ate lunch,
"studied" a little.
went to ICE CREAM CHEFS.
went to lex's house,
had a whole lot of fun there,
then came home=]
thats all for the day:D
WOOOOOTS!our 11months anniversary tomorrow!
muahahahahhahaha.cant wait=] ONE MORE MONTH:D like YAY can?=] i miss you honey,looking forward to seeing you tmr in sch=]cant wait!! I LOVE YOU HONEY♥

2010-02-28T16:33:00.002+08:00

honey...i just read your blog archives..reminded me off everything in the past 10months..im reminded of how we've overcame all our difficulties and obstacles TOGETHER..we held each other's hands,with our love tying us together,and gone through everything..and we will continue doing the same in the present and future..hmm dar i miss you now..as long as you're not with me,it feels as if our hearts are so apart..like ytd,when you were at home in bedok,and i was in the far end west side of s'pore,it felt as if we were so far apart..hmm but as dar said,we're in each other's heart..we're one..the thought of that makes me feel happier...hmm within just this two months,so many things has happened..but we're still together..loving one another..it feels so warm at heart..only he can give me that warm feeling..i guess its love..i love him.and i always will.i love you my honey n.n glad i can see you tmr in sch(: IMY laogong n.n

2010-02-26T12:26:00.002+08:00

hello.hello.hello.im bored~
using sch com now..damn boring can?zzz after this still have stupid chinese afternoon programme sia.lol.facebook cant load well also.so use com also super duper boring.zzz.lol i actually cried during recess in sch.lol..chao~

2010-02-16T17:16:00.002+08:00

after calling me to tell me he was safe one the first day of new year..i have not heard from dar yet..it has been almost 48hours since dardar contacted me..im damn worried..i know i shouldnt think too much..but how ca i not worry?!especially when dar is so far away..i know malaysia aint THAT far.but when you love someone,as long as he or she is not with you,he is far away from you..furthermore IN MALAYSIA.besides..he told me that he might come back ytd..but i havent heard any news from him for two days..even if he come back today,he shouldnt come back so late right..?dar and didi have sch tmr...im super damn worried..damn scared..where is he..i miss dar..dar..ni zai na li..im srsly practically going mad mad mad.i keep holding on to my phone..the last time he called me,he told me nothing bad will happen de..so dar must be safe..but how not to worry..am i being paranoid..i dont care..i really miss him..im worried...WHERE ARE YOU DAR?!

2010-02-14T15:48:00.002+08:00

oh man..dardar today whole day havent msg me at all..at first i was damn sian..but now i damn scared..i dunno if anything happened to dardar..i hope dar is safe..i rather he is cannot sms me..rather than anything else..im damn scared..i just hope dar is safe..i really hope to receive contact from him asap..im super freaking worried now...dardar please please please sms me asap..i love you..i just need one sms..i just want to know you're safe..dar..please..please be alright..i love you..i miss you dar..

2010-02-12T17:19:00.004+08:00

hello hello.
i thought of dumping that post..but i shan't.cos that is part of our memories..and we shall remember every single obstacle we made through together.hmm dar now dunno where..hmm he going back malaysia for new year..miss him so so so much..he going there FIVE DAYS leh.sad sia..but then again,i must be positive for dar la,i hope dar have fun thr wor!hmm dardar i miss you..love you o n.n i think dar phone no batt..well anyway,hmm dar so cute,ask me all three days of new year mst take picture in my dresses and show him xP hmm i wish i had my darling phone TT but nvm la,zui duo use cam lo xD well anyway..my whole mind is full of my dardar now...miss him so much..i hope he is safe..i love dardar :D WOOHOO~ HE SMS ME LER...DAR IS SAFE :D hehe now happy liao n.n haha im so right=] his phone bo batt x{ as long dar safe i happy le=] im bored now.....haha see ya=]

2010-02-10T22:12:00.002+08:00

i never knew how unhappy you were with me..is it too late now..?my hearts hurts so much..i cant stop crying..the pain is far more than excruiciating..
dar...i never knew i made you feel all that..now we've come to this point..it hurts so much..im sorry...i really dont know what decision you will make tomorrow...im afraid to know....when you told me countless of times to believe you that you'll never ever leave me,i did..i used to never be able to believe..but our love made me believe all that you have said..i love you.i love you.i love you.i will never stop saying that..before i continue saying on..please know that im not blaming you or reprimanding you or scolding you..
it hurts because..because of everything you've said to me and promised me and allowed me to believe..you told me never ever to leave you..you told you would never ever leave me..you said you will never abandon me..you said you would never give up on our relationship.you said nothing could make us break apart.you said nothing can seperate us.you told me never to give up on us.you said nothing could stop you from loving me.you said you would take care of me no matter what.you said you wouldn't let anything stand in our way to love each other.you said you'love me and care for me and be there for me forever.you said,you would hold my hand,and we'd both go through all our obstacles TOGETHER no matter what.you said our love is strong enough to make all these promises and our love would withstand everything.you told me to believe in everything you said.you told me to believe in you.you told me,you love me..
so tell me why..why are you giving up now..you really dont want your baby anymore....?you said you'll never dont want your baby de..you said you'll love your baby forever de..then why..why is this happening..im really wishing..i really dont want to break up...i had my hard times..i hung on..because I LOVE YOU.why do you bear to break now..?you never used to even think about it..but now..i dont know how to cope..i dont know i dont know i dont know..i cant live without you..yesterday and today was so hard to survive through..if..if..you tell me the outcome tomorrow..and its that...that you want to break up..what am i going to do..i cant live my life without you in it..i just cant..i know it..
now..i wish i was a better girlfriend..then none of this would happen..you wouldnt be unhappy..i caused you so much grief and unhappiness..i dont know what to do now...i love you.i dont want us to break up...i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you.and nothing will change that.i love you goh wenjian.

2010-01-20T22:56:00.002+08:00

hello:D
just finished my homework for the day.well,that is,except for my CHINESE COMPO.its chinese la.tmr then chiong ba(x i guai-ly completed my e.maths homework AND EVEN A.MATHS HOMEWORK.ehh just give today leh.good girl right?HAHAH.so anyway,i serious need to be positive and work hard with dardar n.n hmm that day dar told me some things i never knew..after hearing those things,i felt that i should really be supportive of dar,the way he has been for me=] dar still studying now,so i dont disturb him first=] hope that we both will put in effort and through hard work,we can d well together for our O's=] im sure we can do it,bcos we have each other=] we'll both do well together de=] JIAYOU DARDAR AND ME!!!!! ;D
hmm dar,thank you for telling bout your parents de things that day..lol i hope you remember what im talking bout horhor(x hmm,it really makes me want to really work even harder..in order to attain their permission and acceptance.i know im always pessimistic bout this,but i guess like you said,"nothing is impossible if we try." and to me,as long as you're there with me,its all i need.just you.thank you dar n.n and rmb what i told you when you were making pineapple tarts?the one about what i hope we could do next year?i really do wish that can really be done..i wish that it'll happen n.n we work together kay?dar jiayou o..n.n i love you♥

2010-01-15T22:02:00.003+08:00

hello hello hello.
stress stress stress.
hmm sch is like totally stressing..hmm but this morning dar said smth really sweet and encouraging to me n.n he said that our O's is an obstacle..and we should hold each others' hands tightly and overcome this obstacle together..
hmm it made me recall how we had held on to one another through all those obstacles we had overcame together..hmm so now we must both work hard together to achieve our aims and goals and do well for our O's =] so i must learn how to be more positive ma..n.n so we can support each other=] i know dar recently has been very stressed up..TT dar de parents keep stressing him..see dardar so moody and upset breaks my heart really..hmm so i try to be more happy,so that dar can smile more and cheer up..i want dar to know that no matter what happens,he can count on me..n.n hmm today also dar nvr send me home..actually i very sad de..but dar explained that he rather one time dont send me home,thn his parents wont suspect thn wont next time cant send me home ma...n.n dar thinking very good wor n.n so i cheer up..i also must learn how to be more understanding ma...for dardar,im trying to change myself to be better for him..=] hope dardar can feel my effort and my xin yi..hahas talk bout dar till i miss him even more le!!n.n its a good thing laaaaaa~ next thing im going to try to change is,whenever dar say he need/want go study,i shouldnt sian diao,i should support dar,and stay happy,and best is study with dardar,the way we have planned together for this year n.n im going to put in effort to work toward what i want n.n me and dardar will work together de..hold each others' hand and encourage one another no matter what happens..dar..i'll be thr to support you no matter what de..i'll not leave you..i'll be there when you need me..when you just need someone to give you a warm smile..i'll be there to give that smile to you n.n dar i trust you'll do the same for me right..?hmm someone once told me,if you dont love the person,when you see that person,you wont have a special feeling ringing in your heart..but when you really love that person,whenever you see him/her,you'll definitely have that unique & special feeling..and i wont be able to stop smiling widely..to me,even if i dont see you,as long as you're on my mind,im happy,i will smile=]
especially when i recall all our moments together and all our sweet times spent together..and all the special & sweet memories we've created together n.n
honey,i love you♥ like you've said,our hearts have been linked..we're one.we'll sense if somethings not right..i know i truly love you.thats not questionable de n.n i hope we'll last together forever too de!!im sure we'll not let go of each others' hand..we'll hold on to one another no matter what happens,even if anything or anyone were to stand in our way.im affirmative our love is strong enough=] we'll work hard together de!!
♥I LOVE YOU♥

2010-01-08T23:25:00.002+08:00

♥HAPPY 9th MONTH ANNIVERSARY DARDAR♥
dardar..we together 9 month le..
haha its also our first anniversary in year 2010...(x
hmm dar,
im very fortunate to have you..
the past nine months you've always been thr for me..
supporting me,
being the one i needed..
always there to cheer me up..
the holidays were really dreadful without being to see you often..
so now..
start school..
we treasure our time together even more..
i love you honey.
♥080409~080110♥

2009-12-20T22:12:00.003+08:00

really bad day.
fucking day.
bullshit.
crap.
screwed day.
treated like waste.
like rubbish.
like a toy.
like a meaningless and insignificant piece of dirt.
whether i'm here or not,
it doesnt even make a difference.

2009-12-16T21:05:00.002+08:00

hehe haha hoho.
im sorry,
i'm SUPER DUPER UBER HAPPY LA CAN?
NUMBER ONE:
me and dardar got to spend the whole day together and spend time together..n.n
NUMBER TWO:
im talking to my hongkong friend now!! :D
muahahahaha~
NUMBER THREE:
im gonna be baking mmmmm-cookies this sunday!!
teehee~
of course happy right?xP
haha,
kay so today dar came to my hse around 11 plus..
to "fetch" me..
haha,in the end we stayed in the hse till like 1140 or 1145?
ahahahahaha
so happy..
cos get to spend time with dar..
just talking and looking each other..
its good enough..
cos i really miss him so much..
esp during my holiday lor..
hmm so after that..
we went to bedok inter first..
haha,dar had to change money and top up ez-link card=]
i needed to buy comb=]
after that,
we took bus 196 to parkway..
thn go lunch lunch..
haha,dardar ate dessert WITH our lunch LOL.
in the end dardar too full..
so he didnt feel comfortable for a while..:(
hmm but nvm laa,
dar now okay le=]
hmm so after lunch,
the sky abit dark sia.
thn we were like contemplating whether to go not lor.
haha in the end we still go=]
we walked to ECP.
when we got thr,
we just sat on the bench at the beach and simply enjoy the sea breeze together..n.n
hahas,we've been wanting to do that for like so so so long..
hehe and we got to do it today..
we went to the beach together..n.n
hmm yeah..i like=]
hope dar did too =X
hehe after a while..
we decided to go rent the bikes and go CYCLING!!
teehee~
haha instead of renting the bikes,
i needed go tie hair ._.
so yeah,go macs the toilet to tie=]
thn i realised..
so sad sia..
my hair so long liao now,
thn tmr have to go trim cos the top part damn thick.
lol hope wont shorten to much xP
hahas so after go rent bikes.
haha,dar pay=] XD
LOL.beginning of cycling,
i was like having the jitters again..
like dont dare dont dare cycle liddat sia.
hehe but in the end still cycle ma xP
thn i found out,
DAR ACTUALLY LAST TIME TOOK ONE WEEK TO LEARN CYCLING...
hahahaha super proud of myself xP
cos i like took close to an hour that time.
LOL.
haha dar no offence laa..
at least now you so good liao=]
hmm so we cycled for around half an hour or so,
thn decided to take a break cos pi gu tong XD
and also it started to pour like mad.
rested at macs..
actually i was tired already,
didnt want to cycle anymore cos no more strength liddat,
hmm but i felt that dar really wanted to cycle some more cos he around one year nvr cycle ler..
so i just tell dardar just carry on cycling=]
hmm
sorry dardar,
i know i nvr tell you that i didnt want to carry on,
but i really wanted to do it for you=]
AND I NEVER REGRET HORHOR..
dont keep saying i regret laa kay?n.n
hahas,
we cycled pass that time the geog "excursion" that area..
thn the seafood area..
thn dar brought me to the 'Bedok Jetty' to take break..
that place very nice actually..
hahas i like mountain turtle sia,
nvr see thr before..
hahas cos my family dont really go ECP de ma..
so yeah,
THANK YOU DARDAR SO MUCH FOR BRINGING ME TO PARTS OF ECP I NVR GO BEFORE n.n
after resting at the bedok jetty thr,
we headed back to the bike rental area thr..
haha reach thr de timing just nice=]
cycle down for a few more min tgt thn turn back & return ler=]
hahas..actually we wanted to go macs wash hands and sit down nia,
in the end,
dardar hungry..go buy food=]
i SUPERR shock la xP
didnt know dardar's lunch digested liao xp
hahahahahaha,
after eating,
two of us slowly walk back to underpass..
hehe on the way back,
we walk on the beach together..
hehe so sweet..
i like that time so much..n.n
really=]
teehee,we drew some stuff on the sand too n.n
hmm dar made a whole trail of his"footprints" XD
haha,we slowly alk back to parkway to take bus..
waited for so long sia.
finally 196 came=]
bussed back to bedok inter=]
hehe,dar was singing during the bus ride n.n
so cute xP
so yeap,
dar sent me all the way home safely again n.n
thn papa came home so dar couldnt stay too long..
hmm miss dardar le..xP
hope dar can online asap=]
tmr morning have to wake up early again lor.
cos need travel go cut trim hair.
LOL.
and tmr have tuition!!
hehe,can see dardar n.n
i love you n.n
some photos next=]

hmm this was at the bench at the beach=]
my hair super messy laa,
WIND BLOW DE...XD

this was in macs after cycling=]
LOL dar look so fierce right?
actually no laa,
HE EATING WHILE TAKING THE PHOTO.
cute laa you=]

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hmm dardar...
i dont regret a single thing today alright...
you really made my day..
you know this morning,
when i woke up,
i kept smiling to myself like guai ka..xP
you know why?
cos i miss you so much and i was so so so glad i could see you and spend the day with you n.n
and guess what..
i enjoyed every single moment of the time being with you..n.n
cycling with you was great..
you brought me to nice places and taught me how to enjoy cycling n.n
hehe,i like walking on the beach hand in hand with you the most..n.n
it was really sweet..
we've both waited so long to do that..
and we did n.n
i love you so much..
thank you so so much for bringing me so much joy in my life..n.n
I LOVE YOU.

2009-12-15T19:03:00.003+08:00

haha,
im back from my last overseas trip of the year le n.n
went to hongkong with choir and now just came back from bintan with my family n.n
I MISS MY DARDAR SO SO SO MUCH LAAAAAA.
hmm,yeap,
we've been tgt 8 months le..
hehe its like,
shuo chang bu chang,shuo duan ye bu duan..
hahas,we happy tgt can le ma n.n
hmm so yeah,
this is the first time,
i went overseas thn a few days nvr get to sms dar at all..
cos go overseas with parents ma,
cannot tou tou sms or anything..
so sad..
but nvm la,
im back le n.n
hahas..
all the way through my holiday,
im always thinking bout dar..
miss him so much...
lucky i brought the bearbear dardar gave me n.n
at least bearbear can pei me n.n
btw,SORRY FOR PANGSEH YOU AT LAST NIGHT'S TUTION DAR!!
haha,the funny thing was,
last night,
i was like worried dar would forget that he have a.maths tuition xP
wanted to like sms him to remind him sia,
but cannot,hehe lucky he remembered n.n
im so glad to be back..
hahas,btw,
I BOUGHT BUBBLE GUM FOR DIDI.
hope he like~
hahas.
hopefully dardar de mama will let him go out tmr=]
thn i can see my dar..
i miss him so much..cant wait to see him!!

dardar,
you know?
during the holiday,
somehow,
i keep talking bout you in front of my family n.n
and on sunday morning,
i did feel disappointed,
but i know you will really try de,
so i dont blame you de kay n.n
i left happily,
i rather be happy so that i'll really look forward to coming home and closer to you n.n
and i really was wor n.n
when my parents told me we will reach s'pore around four plus,
i was simply OVERJOYED!
really!
cos i was expecting us to like reach only at six to seven plus sia TT
haha,in the end i got to read all the smses you sent me and quickly contact you much earlier!!
woohoo~
im so so so glad..
and dar kept your promise...
hehe thank you my dardar for everything..
i love you n.n

2009-12-03T22:10:00.002+08:00

im pissed,
im hurt,
im upset,
im crying.
let me cry out,
cos i just cant take in any longer,
i really cant,
im bursting,
bursting out in tears.
i really dont know what i can do.
i really really dont know.
this is going to kill me.
TWO DAYS.
wow.
i know i went for four days..
but just these two days,
is enough to kill me.

2009-11-23T22:47:00.001+08:00

hmm..
today bcos of tuition,
i got to see my dardar..n.n
yay=]
hahas,
i just chose blogskin for him..n.n
yay.
going play games with dar ler=]
chao~

2009-11-22T22:03:00.002+08:00

CAMP IS OVER...
hmm i managed to get what i really wanted from this camp..=]
i got to see my dardar often during the day esp during meal times..^^
so happy..
its like during the camp,
even if im pissed or upset or exhausted or feeling sian,
as long as i get to see dar and see him smile to me,
it always felt so comforting and warm at heart ^^
it seemed to be the best medicine to every negative thing that happens.
i guess IT IS.
hahas,
first day was nothing much ba,
mostly briefing and little "ice-breaker" games.
lol.
ONLY ONE GAME WAS SUPERRR UBER FUN.
ahahahaha.
night time,
nvr really get to see dardar just before i slept,
only could mouth the words,"wan an" to my dardar..
hmm yeah so chatted with amirah and jingwen till around 12 plus thn go sleep ba=]
i almost every hour wake up sia lol..
hahas ohhya!
dardar gimme his bottle to use for the camp duration..
hehe so sweet,
thn on the first night,
i actually hugged it to sleep sia.xP
and each hour i woke up,
i would drink water from it ^^
ahahaha,lol i sound abit sick sia.
ahh,whatever la,
i do what i like=]
so yeah,
second day was high elements activities..
before we seperate,
dardar keep ask me xiao xin and take care..
haha who could have guessed?
FIRST ACTIVITY ONLY I GOT INJURED LIAO SIA.LOL.
haha,i suck at rock climbing sia.
couldnt make it larh...
so paiseh sia.
when got down,
~~i cried~~
stupid sia,
but right,
at that time,
i really wanted dardar for me to kao on sia..
hmm but nvm la,
after that dardar concern for me can liao >.<
hahas,so yeah got quite a long cut on my left leg lol.
abit swollen that night.
but nvm laa.
hehe second night me and dardar got to see each other and talk longer before we went back to our bunks=]
hehe dar gave me his towel..
hmm he brought one towel for bathing and one towel to hug to sleep..
hehe so clever=]
thn dardar gave me his hugging towel for me to bao to sleep..
cos i used to hugging my stuff toys to sleep..
so dardar give me=]
so i can feel more comfortable..
and also cos of another reason laa xP
hehe and yeah,
im also not gonna say what i did when i got his towel =X
hehehehehe
that night i slept very well^^
nvr wake up at all until 5.30...
hehehe,
good sleep=]
that morning go kayaking..
of course,
dar ask me take care also...^^
ask me careful dont get blisters on hand cos of the paddling..
lol..who knows..
after kayaking,
all the blisters popped out..
ahahahahaha,
nvm laa,not very pain..
but sad =[
dardar had a cut on his left ankle thr..
see ler heartpain sia..
bleeding sumore..TT
so i run up to bunk and get plaster for dardar..^^
even put on the plaster for him^^
hahas but put position wrong..
ahaha,so make him pain sumore..
haha i shall not state why..
hehe,sorry dar!
bu shi gu yi de!!
hahas..
so yeah,
that night dar and i could meet up before we orhorh..
sweet!=]
hahas,that night i also hugged dardar de towel to sleep..
but sadly,
around five plus,
my leg cramped like mad sia.........
nvr cramp till so pain before sia...
when morning wake up,
still pain sia..
had to limp..
WORST STILL,
PEOPLE LATE FOR MORNING ASSEMBLY,
EVERYONE HAD TO DO PUSHUPS AND RUN SIA...
plus the cut on my leg thr..
my leg pain like siao luh..
ouch...x.x
after that my knees skin tear sia..TT
hmm but nvm ba...
after a while,
the pain okay ler..
thn AREA CLEANING..
3E3 HAD TO WASH THE TOILETS...
OH MY TIAN..
LOL.but okay la,
in the end quite fun=]
cos super funny laa can.
hahas,
and in the end,
our toilet super super clean ^^
GOOD JOB 3E3 GIRLS!!:D
hahas,after that go back sch lo....
took group photo..
thn me and dardar meet,
thn cos smth happen,
i cried like siao to my dar...
really needed him..
lucky it was him thr not anyone else..
otherwise i would have tried to stop myself from letting it out..
so xin ku...
so yeah,
my dardar was thr for me..
cried like mad..
thn mama come with the car to fetch me..
dar carry my bags for me..
SORRY DARDAR!!MAKE YOU GO HOME YOURSELF..
sorry wor...
hope you were fine..=[
yeah,
so went home,
bathed thn KO.
sadly,
mama woke me up at four plus..
she say scared i at night cannot orhorh..
so wake me up..
lol my eyes couldnt even open sia..
whole night i like zombie looking..
hahas,
thn at night once lie on bed,
STRAIGHT AWAY KONK OFF AFTER smsing dar goodnight^^
hahas,so thats all ba,
hope tmr can see dar...
i miss him...
hehe.n.n

2009-11-17T21:12:00.004+08:00

oh man...
how am i going to survive these four days of camp man..
although we're having our sec three camp tgt,
but we cant really meet much..
cos of different class and we have our...
"RESTRICTIONS"..
hmm so yeah..
cant really talk much..
so definitely,
im gonna mss my darling...
oh my my...
how to survive sia lidat...TT
dont even know whether one day can talk one time mah....
hmm but dunno why,
im suddenly looking forward for the camp..
although i havent been looking forward for the camp...
lol i think cos i everyday SUPER UBER BORED AT HOME LAAAAA.
also looking forward cos even if i dont get to talk to dar,
thr are chances of me getting to see hom here and thr ma...
hehe so at least i get to see him here and thr during the whole day,
within these few days of camp..
hahas,
i know that wont be enough for me de xP
but still,
i have to treasure what i have ma.n.n
hmm...
today,mama said alot of hurtful stuff to me..
but,what you want me to do right?
i cant possibly let him go..
i dont bear to,i CANT.
and i DONT EVEN WANT TO LA.
so yeah,
since i made that decision,
why should i be unhappy over that right?
so SMILEEEEEEEEE!!!!
muahahaahahahaha.
i thinki quite high now.
lol,teehee~:D
hmm sad thing is,
mama was supposed to send me to sch tmr morning de..
but suddenly she say she cmi cos of my sis...
zzz ._.
so now,I HAVE TO TAKE THE FREAKING BUS TO SCH,
WITH MY HEAVY BAG,SLEEPING BAG AND SHOES BAG.
zzzzz,lol forget it.
MOOD KILLER.
hahas,
im kinda bored now,
wonder what i can do now.LOL.
hope all the sec threes have fun for this camp=]
and HOPEFULLY,
MY CLASS WILL REALLY BOND.
that will be the best n.n
woohoo~
chao~

2009-11-13T10:23:00.003+08:00

LOL.
this year super alot of ppl wish me happy birthday through facebook de can?
haha.
once again,
A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO WISHED ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
AND THANK YOU TO ALL WHO GAVE ME PRESENTS!!
THEY'RE ALL VERY MUCH APPRECIATED..=]
hmm,
im super bored now.
i think i go do my jigsaw puzzle now=]
chao~

2009-11-11T21:06:00.002+08:00

hmm..
post bout yesterday 101109=]
morning had to go throught THREE freaking hours of AMATHS.
damn boring de can?
lol.
i SUPER SUPER blurr de can?
i stupidly nvr check the bridging time table,
thought 8 start,
wake up and got out of the hse earlier than normal sumore sia.
happily walk to busstop.
saw weilun and his mama,
super shocked sia.
i was like thinking is miracle sia.
WEILUN so late go sch.
nvr go macs eat first.
turn out,
he told me is NINE O CLOCK THAN START UH.
zzzz. ._.
SMART RIGHT.
lol,so i end up going macs with weilun.-.-
zzz,
yeap so after the stupid amaths,
rush home with dardar to change up and meet ghim kor at bedok inter.
LOL.i was super late de can?
sorry korkor!!
hahas,so yeah i was like 30min late?
HAHAH.
lol took 196 to parkway to meet hazel,
took damn long luh.-.-
hmm got thr,
go lunch with ghim,
while hazel go pei natalie to parkway parade to buy thingys..
after that,
all four walked to ECP to "do project"=]
end up got thr,
do ONE QUESTION,
for FIVE MINUTES,
thn we go play play liaos=]
and omg.
I LEARNT HOW TO CYCLE LIAO.
actually..
is learn for dardar de..
cos dardar love cycling ma..
so learn liao,
next time when can,
can go cycle with dardar ma....n.n
hahas...
at first i struggled like mad..
lol,damn idiot de can?
wasted 40min of their time luh.xP
hmm after that,
they said go straight and no turning back liao.
thn i like stress dao,
finally just chiiong,
thn i was off=]
i was cycling=]
dunno how..
just started cycling...
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~
so so so happy.
but of course not so stable yet laa.
after cycling a distance,
thn man man stable liao=]
hahas..
so so so so so so so super duper happy that i accomplish liao=]
so happy,
so yeah.
A BIG BIG THANK YOU TO:
HAZEL :D
NATALIE :D
GHIM HWEE :D
hahahahaha~
thank you so much ppl=]
for your PATIENCE.
hahahaha,
pls dont let ppl know THAT SIDE OF ME....
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
so yeap,
return the bike,
and skates,
thn went macs to "wsh up",
thn go COFFEE BEAN.
hahahaha.
slacked thr,
chatted,
laughed,
had fun.:D
thn left thr at ard 6..
walked all the way out to busstop..
took 16 with ghim kor..
and finally reached home at seven plus...
hahas,
although super tired,
and pigu super duper pain,
and today whole bosy ache,
im still super happy=]
and super duper worth it de la=]
hehehehehehehehehehe.
kay,
i think im going mad.
mmmmmuahahahahahahhaaaaaaaaaaaa~
LOL.
and btw,
THANK YOU TO ALL PEOPLE WHO WISHED ME FOR MY FIFTEETH BIRTHDAY!!
HAHAHAHA.LOVE YOU GUYS SO SO SO MUCH :D

2009-11-10T21:27:00.004+08:00

yesterday was one of the best days spent with HIM~
hmm..
yesterday was my birthday..
morning,
woke up to seeing six smses on my phone..
birthday wishes^^
got ready fo sch in anticipation of meeting him..
hmm cos nvr see him a few days ler..
missed him..
yeah,got to sch,
be he not in sch yet..
he reached sch only on the dot..
so no chance eat his breakfast..lol
during geog lesson,
dar kinda engrossed in the com uh..
make me feel so..uh..
thn he spilt his orange juice,
then somehow he scolded me without even knowing..
cried sia..
no one even saw.heng bah.
after that totally sian diao..
thn suddenly dar told me smth..
felt super super bad..
cried again.
cry all the way home alone..
at home,
waited for him to contact me..
suddenly out of nowhere,
he call me,
he was at my doorstep!!!
i was like in state of shock can?
hahas.
after that i cheered up^^
i changed to my dress thn dar help me straighten my hair..
hahas.so sweet ><
hmm hehe when dar and i were sitting on sofa,
dar ask me close eyes..
hehe he finally gimme the couple ring he bought for us,
and for my bday present..
hehe he wear on for me when i closed my eyes^^
so sweet=]
thn i put on the guy wrist band i bought for dar on for him=]
so glad dar like it o..n.n
teehee~
after that we left my place and headed for vivo city..n.n
hmm when we got thr,
we went to see what movie was on..
AND GUESS WHAT?!!
THEY WERE STILL SHOWING 'CLOUDY WITH THE CHANCE OF MEATBALLS'!!!!
WOOHOO~
so so so happy^^
so yeap,
bought the tickets for the 1620 show.
hahas only got that slot ma.xP
after that go find lunch..
hahas,
by that time alrdy three plus lol.
we two still cant decide whr to go eat.xP
end up in RAMEN TEN.
hahas.but sadly,
i ordered this super not nice de.
lol dar opposite.
he order super nice de lor.xP
hahas.
we take our time sia.
in the end have to rush over to GV cos late for movie.xP
turn out,when we go thr,
the commercials havent even start.
LOL.
so yeah,
really love the time spent with dar in the movie..n.n
very sweet!!
hahas,
after the movie,
me and dar go buy socks wor..
hahas.i buy pink socks,
dar buy green socks.xP
teehee
thn we go take train again..
hahas.dardar want bring me go sit s'pore flyer ma.^^
hmm me and dar so engrossed that we almost to forget to drop off at clarke quay.
i more blur laa~
ytd mindlag lor..
hahas cos got a little sick ytd ma..xP
hmm thn right,
we realised we supposed to go CITY HALL.
not CLARKE QUAY.
we blurr daooooooo...=X
so yeah take train thr again lo..
from thr walk to esplanade..
waa,
the walk from esplanade to flyer was super uber long..
hmm,
but with my dardar,
its worth o n.n
get to spend time with my dardar ma n.n
hehe finally reach flyer le,
buy tickets thn go up..
hehe actually we both wanted alone de..
but not possible..
hahas,so we took with other ppl..
hehe but nvm la,
we have each other can le ma n.n
hmm so yeah,the flyer ride was very very sweet..
teehee,it rained during the ride sumore.^^
our favourite..^^
hehe,i really loved the ride on flyer with dar..
hehe so sweet de o n.n
I STRONGLY RECOMMEND ALL SWEET COUPLES TO GO TAKE THE FLYER TGT.ESP AT NIGHT!!!!!:D
hehehehehehehehe n.n
after the ride,
dar and i walked our JOURNEY home.
and i srsly mean JOURNEY.
LOL.
WE GOT SUPER SUPER LOST I TELL YOU.
hahas.
we walked from FLYER to MILLENIA WALK.
MILLENIA WALK to SUNTEC CITY.
SUNTEC CITY to MARINA SQUARE.
MARINA SQUARE then FINALLY CITY LINK.
hahas.from thr thn of course nvr lost la xP
hahas.
when reach bedok,
me and dar run super fast to chase bus 60 sia.xP
finally zhui dao n.n
on bus,
i was telling dar,
maybe i later chiong home i fall down on the bridge how o?xP
hahas.thn so suay,
i really fell on the bridge stairs sia.LOL.XD
super pain sia.
but i still continue running..
hahas
got home,
parents called from HK,
thn went to bathe and rest..
hehe was a really sweet bday my dardar made for me..n.n
really love my dardar!
hehe
hmm dardar..
i love you so much..
thank you for doing so much for my bday..
also,
we tgt seven months le wor..
im very happy..
dar..im really so xing fu to have you wor..
hehe,ni dui wo zui hao o..
ye shi zui teng wo de!!
hehe,dont say sorry for "torturing" me cos we got lost la.
i dont mind xP
cos you're by my side ma n.n
hehe i love you no matter what de.n.n
we still have long road to walk together de.
i love you.n.n

2009-11-10T21:21:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!HAHAHAHA FIFTEEN LER HOR!XD
also..wishes for some others..=]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENYI [2nov]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LUCAS [3nov]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LING GANG [3nov]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOOYEE [5nov]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNT RUP [6nov]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHANLIN KOR [7nov]
HAPPY 7th ANNIVERSARY...[8nov]^^
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YONGSOON KOR [9nov]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERMAINE [9nov]
and for tmr,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LENGYING [11nov]
hahas.guess thats it=]

2009-11-08T23:21:00.002+08:00

HAPPY SEVENTH ANNIVERSARY DARDAR~
hehe we tgt seven months ler wor...n.n
hmm i SUPER UBER happy de can?=]
im so glad we held on to each other even through all those tough obstacles..
hehe im not gonna let you go..
dardar,im so glad we tgt so long le..
from 080409 to now 081109 wor..
hehe you happy ma?n.n
dar i love you so so so much..
hehe.cant wait to see you tmr.n.n
nvr see you these few days..
miss you like mad le..
hehe cant wait!!
n.n n.n n.n

2009-11-06T22:51:00.001+08:00

humm..
my dardar..
SO SWEEEEEEET TODAY!!!!
hehe.super happy now la can?
have a dar who teng me so much..
this post is short and sweet.
I LOVE YOU DARDAR~

2009-11-05T23:03:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder..
am i a jinx..
eversince i stepped into your life..
so many bad things have happened..
and now..
i know how SHE truly feels towards me..
i cant help myself but to keep being reminded of the incident..
and our current situation..
i wish i could control myself..
the images,
the voice,
the words.
they're haunting me..
but i dont regret..
forgive me for my selfishness..
but i cant let you go..
i cant i cant i cant.

2009-10-22T21:30:00.005+08:00

humm..
just thought of it..
since dar is posting all his belated post for me now,
why dont i post for him too..
hahas.although a lot of my past posts were for him,
there's no wrong to post one more=]
hmm,today..
dar came to my hse after his amath lesson..
HAHAH.he came when my mummy was around..
hahas.cos he fix smth for my mama de blog.xP
so he came..
so glad my mama let him come=]
mama was nice to him today=]
which is good=]
HAHAH.the funny thing was,
my mum actually rmb that dar is JIE PI.
so funny.
so yeah,
when dar came,
mummy offered him some things to eat..
he ate our CREAM-CHEESE BUN.
hmm dardar was busy doing the blogg stuffs so i feed him lo.xP
haha.hope he like the bread=]
hmm after doing my mama's blog,
dar help me edit mine too..
hahas cos i accidentally deleted some stuffs=]
yeah,actually dar had to leave by 11.30 de..
but he told his mama he 12 go home cos he want help me do my stuffs..
so nice of him=]
but in the end,
he left at almost 1230.hahas.
after dar left,
as he had guesses,
my mama was talking about him.
the good thing was,
my mama nvr said anything bad bout him=]
guess my mama finally really approve le n.n
so happy.
dar also very happy..
after he left,
he was talking bout how my mama smiled and thanked him.=]
so all of us are happy bout this.
GGGGGGREATTT!!
after dar left,
i got bored again.
hahas no la,i took my lunch=]
after that i went to audi..
hahas after so long finally back on audi liao=]
licensed straight away.
thn licensed for JX kor=]
around three,
went to prepare for "tuition"
didnt wanna go,
so me and dar pon=]
we got to spend time alone tgt..
woohoo~
so happy..n.n
we enjoyed each other's company..
really wish we could have these kinda time tgt more..
hmm but im satisfied with what i have=]
i guess all that matters is our love=]
[sorry ppl,i know abit mushy here,my bad!]
so after it all,
dar sent me home once again..
then he left..
so didnt want him to go,
as per normal.xP
so guess what?
im missing him yet again=]
hey dar..
i know we've only parted for merely a few hours..
but im already missing you..
thank you for posting all those and being so sweet..
i just shedded a few more tears for you..
but they were tears of joy,
when i recalled how happy you sounded that night,
it really touched my heart deeply..
thank you for letting me mean so much to you..
you mean the world to me too,
never felt this much for a guy before,
you'll be the first.
i love you.
truly,madly,deeply in love with you.

2009-10-21T21:59:00.003+08:00

heyheyho~
i really enjoyed today alot..n.n
me and dar can go out tgt le=]
hmm although we didnt actually go out alone tgt,
but i guess as long as he's there,
i'll be happy to be thr to pei him de=]
hmm i decided to wear dress today..
for him de laa~n.n
really hope he likes it=]
so yeah today i change my look xP
look like very different from normal dressing can?._.
around 12 plus,
dar came my hse fetch me..
thn we go wait for 21 to go pasir ris
haha.i thought we were late.
turn out,when we got to e!hub,
the guys were all still at whitesands..
hahas.so we went to get some sushi and lunch.xP
but in the end,
we were still late cos while we were eating,
they all go in KBOX liao.=X
hmm,so sian la,thr super super cold de la.
hahas,lucky have jx kor de jacket lend me=]
and of course my dar to gimme his "warmth".
hehe thank you alot my dar..n.n
thanks kor too=]
lol half-way through,
kor showed me smth,
thn i sayed smth that made my dar sian diao..
felt so bad after that sia..TT
but i hope he wouldnt fel that way le,
cos i wont ever feel that way de=]
im happy with what i have le=]
so yeah,
sit thr to pei my dar and listen to all of them singing..
haha.
thr were eight of us ba=]
LINGGANG,YANGYANG,YANGYANGJIE,JINMING,CLARENCE,
JINXIAN,WENJIAN,MEL.
HAHAH.and i found out someone's nickname=]
they all call clarence "mao ren".xP
hehe,ple dont get angry hor!=X
hmm thn me and dar left them ard 6pm to go walk around alone tgt..
hahas we totally had no idea whr to walk.
pasir ris soooooo boring de.
haha.dar thn bought me CHOCOLATE MARSHMALLOWS=]
SO NICE~
haha we shared them=]
after walking around,
we go wai bus lo..
haha just when 21 came,
GUESS WHO I SAW?!
AMIRAH AND ARSHAD.
haha and a few other BGSS-IANS.
so yeah me and dar take bus tgt=]
thn we ate at my hse downstairs thr..
after that dar send me home=]
hahas.sooooo happy today de wor.n.n
my dar..
thank you for bringing me along with your friends today..
i got to know your friends more today=]
most impt,i got to be with you today n.n
im already missing you..
looking forward to meeting to tmr again..=]
i love you.n.n

2009-10-16T22:11:00.002+08:00

MY HAIR HAS BEEN STRAIGHTENED.
haha.thanks to lex=]
I LOVE YOU GIRL.THANKS SO SO SO MUCH.
hahas.im actually really looking forward to next wednesday.n.n
hmm im going malacca tmr..
all eight of us..
daddy,mummy,jie,me
grandma,aunt sarur,aunt rup,uncle jon=]
hehe.we're gonna be driving two cars=]
haha.im kinda bored now.
dar not online sumore.
haih..thn now my phone hanging on me for the second time of the day.
zzz im sooo bored!!
hahas.and guess what.
i ren another kor a few days back=]
hahas.HO JINXIAN.
lol.im soo gonna miss my dardar tmr man..
leaving fr msia early in the morning sia..
late at night thn come back..
sososo miss him now too..
i love you dar=]

2009-10-09T14:07:00.002+08:00

HAPPY SIX MONTH ANNIVERYSARY DARDAR!!

hehe..so fast we tgt half a year ler..

080409 - 081009 2310..

hmm i cant believe i cried last night after 2310..

first time i srsly cry out becos very happy wor..

really!nvr before that happened..

hahas.but after that eyes pain. ._.

so smart la me.

i cant believe we half a year tgt le..

im really happy..

thanks dar for everything..n.n

2009-10-02T22:04:00.002+08:00

im waiting..
waiting for the day to see that smile.
her smile.
their smile.
but somehow,
my intuition,
and everything in me,
tells me that i will never attain that smile.
no matter how hard we try,
no matter how hard i try.
i just feel that they do not like me.
for not being sensible months back.
i dont think they'll ever accept me..
as much as you try to tell me its not that they dislike me,
but i just cant get over that 'xin li zhang ai',
that they really dont like me..
i just wish they would..
i know it wouldnt be easy.
i know it will be tough.
but im just really afraid that even in the future,
they wouldnt approve of me.
i fear each day..
foolishly thinking that there may actually be a chance i would get those two smiles..

2009-09-27T21:39:00.002+08:00

hello.hello.hello.:D
hahas.
this has been a great week..
very sweeeeet~
humm friday was really really sweet for me and my dardar..
hehe although,
when he was about to leave,
there were some "zhuang kuang"..
hahas..luckily we heng and jie help us..^^
hahas.so after we got away from that "trouble",
we went to platform together again..
hehe,our HIDEOUT.^^
stayed thr till around seven,
thn i went for my chem tuition..
hmm yesterday was very very very bad..
couldnt get to see my dar AT ALLLLL.
miss him like mad..
just one day sia,
and i alrdy cannot tahan..
hmm when he called me at night,
felt soo comforted to hear his voice..
hehe.=]
today morning we finally got to see each other..
but we fought..TT
quite a bad one somemore..
i cried in tuition class sia..
then we quarrelled like siao on sms until like two plus..
shed so many tears..
but it was all worth..
cos in the end,
we worked things out.
hehe after that become sweet back again ler..
hehe^^
i JUST FINISHED MY MMMMM-LICIOUS SNOWSKIN MOONCAKE WITH CHOCOLATE AND CHAMPAIGN.
SOOOOOO NICE~
muahhahahahahaha.
hahas i abit high now=]
i love you my dear=]

2009-09-23T20:32:00.002+08:00

heyho heyho.
abit high now..
but kinda tired now..
hmm today whole day in sch was feeling sian sian de..
totally no mood.
today every lesson is single period de lor.
today's ONE PERIODs:
HISTORY COMMON TEST.[goner]
MATHS[okay la]
SS[did a SBQ]
HISTORY[supposed to do SBQ]
after recess:ENGLISH[paired work with ghim hwee kor^^]
MATHS AGAIN.[corrections,corrections & MORE corrections.]
PHYSICS.[mdm azian was quite nice(x]
MOTHER TONGUE.[slept in class]
after lunch:SS AGAIN.[got full marks for SBQ^^]
"SELF-STUDY"[3E3 became zoo again.(x]
MATHS TEST.[dunno whether can pass anot sia.most likely not.blehx]
MATHS "EXTRA LESSON"[again,CORRECTIONS,CORRECTIONS & MORE CORRECTIONS.]
zzz.want die sia.LOL.
thn after sch,he have cca sia..
thn like super disappointed luh..
cos my cca stop for exams lerh..
but his havent..
haih.
hmm but he still send me out of sch laa.(x
so of course,went home alone.
yeah,slacked around at home..
hehe,he came my house downstairs to find me after his cca..
hehe so happy to spend time with my dardar..=]
after he came,
i super super high liao.
hahas even now still kinda high,
keep smiling gullibly to myself..
look like idiot here.xP
but i dont care laa.i also cant control my smile=]
humm but i think i damn tired now ler.
lols cos my eyes like cant keep open in front of this com screen sia.
HAHAH.XD
i love you=]

2009-09-22T17:26:00.002+08:00

humm..yesterday and today was REALLY great.:D
esp yesterday.=]
hmm kinda like a "double happiness".
that is,to me la.=]
i was like cracking my head who to go out with..
cos my whole family would be leaving me home ALONE AGAIN.
so thought of my kors..
and heng heng both free.=]
humm thn suddenly dardar msg me say he can go out too!
SUPER SUPER SUPER HAPPY de can?
hahas.so we all went out tgt.=]
actually dar supposed to fetch me from my home de..
but he no time..
so in the end we met at my hse de busstop.
actually i was kinda "pissed off" de..
but dunno why,
once i saw him,
i just cant stop myself from smiling..
hahas dar thought i was laughing at something..
but actually is once i saw him,
my "anger" at him totally gone ler lor..
maybe cos over the weekends i missed him alot ba..
hehe ^^
so yeah,waited and waited and waited from the bus to come..
LOL fk kor was like thr super much earlier thn three of us de lor.xP
when we two on bus,
sl kor still on mrt also.
HAHAH.HAD A GREAT LAUGH WHEN I SAW SL KOR.
you know why?
someone got his hair cut SUPERRRR SHORT DE..xP
HAHAS.he totally damn irritated by my comments on his "new hairstyle" ^^
so thn all four of us met up ler,
our dear SHANLIN say want go lunch.
LIKE CRAZY CAN?!
ONLY ELEVEN PLUS LEH.
hahas.he say he hungry..
but we like all dont care lor.xP
so we go around gai gai..=]
hmm after walking around a while,
we just decided to go eat..
went RAMEN TEN for lunch lunch..=]
lol,shanlin say one of the waiter thr is his ex-classmate..
and like,throughout our time thr,
he was the one serving us de lar..
so guai.
so yeah,we took almost 15min to decide what to eat.HAHAS.
in the end,
shanlin ordered seafood tomyum ramen,
fengkuan ordered chicken karage ramen,
hmm and me & dar shared a beef tomyum ramen=]
and ordered other dishes too=]
ALL SHARE SHARE..
hehe like family sia.=]
our total bill was like,
$93?lol.
after lunch we went walking around again..
went to TM first..
SHANLIN KOR BOUGHT ME SUPER EXPENSIVE CHOCOLATES.
THANK YOO SOOOO MUCH!!!^^
hmm thn coincidentally saw hui yi senior working at TOYS R' US.LOL
go find minghui jie's present,
the super belated present kors "owe" vanishaa,
and my phone pouch!!xP
HAHAS AND GUESS WHAT?
we bought all three from the same shop.=]
we bought a hello kitty for minghui jie,
a moomoo cow for vann,
and my bearbear phone pouch..
woohoo~
saw a SUPER CUTE DOLPHIN thr..
but all three of them say the texture not nice sia..
so sad..
but i really like it!!!
its damn cute and i like the size=]
very niceeeee to huggggggg^^
hmm but of course nvr buy la.xP
after "shopping" thr,
we headed for tamp SAFRA.
took bus 18 thr..
IT WAS RAINING:D
sadly,
when we got thr,
all lanes fully used sia..
must put on waiting list sia.
so the guys played pool first..
hahas.while i sat and ate chocs..=]
i shared mine with my dardar..hehe^^
finally,after almost an hr,
CAN PLAY BOWLING LER!!!1=]
so all four of us started to choose balls and change shoes..
half-way through the game,
minghui jie came with her mei mei..
me and sl kor made her guess which one is her gift..
she actually managed to guess correct sia.
so smart.=]
speaking of that,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MINGHUI JIE![160909]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAZEL![170909]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELISSA TEO![180909]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMIRA![180909]
hahas.so yeah,we continued to bowl..
thn i was like taking my phone and taking photos with all of them..
four of us played two games..
last game only me and dar play tgt..
hahas.dar last game keep fang shui sia.xP
hahas.
after the last game,
me and dar left first cos dar gtg go home earlier..
so we left around six..
hmm dar sent me home=]
he stayed around a little while thn had to go..
so sad sia..
wished that dar could have stayed longer..
started to miss him once he left seh..TT
humm but it was okay..
cos today can see him in sch le ma..xP
so yeah,
went up to gramp's place for dinner around 6.45
managed to psycho my aunt to bring us all to swensens for ICE CREAM:D
and i succeeded=]
we all went.
six of us..
we went to airport T2 de swensens..
YUM YUM ICE CREAM.
hahas.stayed thr till around nine thn drove home..
HAHAH.in the end,
mummy and daddy were home before us.xP
hmm after that nth much ler..hahas.
it was a really great day.so tired after that.=]
SUPER SUPER HAPPY to go out with my dardar..
so long nvr go out with him ler..=]
TODAY.
morning i gotta see my dar..
hehe=]
and we drew the bearbear tgt in geog class..xP
during chem,
our dear hazel randomly said she wanted to go ice cream chef.
and somehow i just said okay lo.
lets go today.
and we went.
so it was three of us.
me,hazel,mel teo.=]
bussed on 14 all the way thr..
found out whr hazel,luke and charles stay.LOL.
humm..what ice cream we ate?
HAZEL:MRS SMITH WITH MARSHMALLOWS.
ME:GREEN TEA WITH CHOCOLATE RICE.
MEL TEO:CHOCOLATE HERSHEYS WITH CRUSHED OREO.
hahas.not bad la.
but like super lazy to travel all they way just to eat ice cream.=]
thn i was complaining and complaining that i would take a SUPER long time to get home..
lol but i thinki was the FIRST to reach home sia.
SMART RIGHT?:D
took bus 40 with hazel..
so heng,at the bus inter,bus 40 drops off whr all my buses 66,228,60 were.
even luckier thing was,
once i reached,
miraculously bus 60 came.
and only three ppl boarding sumore.xP
lol one of which was my ex sch mate.
but i dont even know if he still recognises me.
lol cos i changed like,
ALOT?
hahas.he nvr change at all sia.
hahas.so i guess thats all bah.=]
TO EVERYONE OUT THERE,
BE HAPPY AND,SMILE.=D

humm..dar,
really sorry for like pangseh-ing you for the first half of the day..
i never see my kor quite long ler..
so maybe got carried away talking to him..
really didnt mean to leave you out and
even make you angry..
sorry..forgive me kay..
my sincere apologies..
but i really truly enjoyed the second half of the day..
at least it was much better right?=]
im really happy we finally got to go out together..
i really cherish this outing,this chance alot..
i wont forget this outing too=]
also,thank you so much for making me so happy too..
and and!THANKYOU FOR THE SUPERR CUTE BEARBEAR PHONE POUCH!
i really really love it alot!!!
i will take care of it de..
hehe.dar,i love you=]

2009-09-22T16:56:00.010+08:00

humm..i shall post pictures from yesterday and today=]

thn followed by my essay-long post.:D

our lunch at RAMEN TEN.

Tampines SAFRA..WJ playing pool=]

shanlin kor's turn=][hahas.look at his SHORT hair]xP

BOWLING TIME!!!

getting ready to bowl..=]

LOL.dar look like he scolding the ball or waving 'bye' to the ball sia.(x

see la,so tall,have to bend so low..xP

WJ[document] & FK[retard]

mel[mangkuk] & shanlin[chicken](mei & kor^^)

kor & mei..^^

dar & me..^^

the phone pouch dar bought for me..=]

ally[my sis] & mel =]

STICKY CHEWY CHOCOLATE!!!

CHOCOLATE FONDUE!!!

HAZEL's ice cream=]

MY ice cream=]

MEL TEO's ice cream=]

MY FAVOURITE PIC OF ALL^^

2009-09-20T21:12:00.004+08:00

LOL I JUST POSTED ALL MY SUPER OVER-DUED PICTURES.AHAHAHA~
hehe.starting from september holidays=]
lol.im on the phone now.=]
I WANT GO BOWLING.
I WANT GO ZOO.
AHAHAHAHA~
I WANT GO SEE WHITE TIGER.LION.CHICKEN.
COW.DUCK.BABOON.MONKEYS.
PENGUIN.POLAR BEAR.SNAKE.ELEPHANT.
FISHIES.DOLPHIN.SEALION.CROCODILES?
HAHAS.
im like super high now?xP
see ya=]

2009-09-20T20:33:00.011+08:00

090909 I WAS STUDYING ALRIGHT!(x

100909 WHITE CAT AT MY HOUSE VICINITY.CUTE RIGHT?!

100909 COOKIE MONSTER SAYS 'HEYHO'

110909 KOREAN RESTAURANT.

180909 me and mel teo's ICE CREAM!!!(X

190909 COOKIE MONSTER GETS TO EAT FAMOUS AMOS COOKIES!(x

TODAY 20092009 what i wore today=]

20092009 HARI RAYA GOODIES AT UNCLE'S PLACE :D

2009-09-17T21:41:00.004+08:00

OUCH.my legs are hurting like mad.
LOL.
today was fun.
we exchanged phones for a day.
i loveeeee his phone.^^
of course him too.n.n
i used his phone as if it was mine sia.
cos alrdy very familiar with his phone.
hahas.but HE.on the other hand,
i think he struggled with the msging part.xP
so cute.
so we pon our amaths tuition like,AGAIN.
hahas king went lan.><
waited for him to dismiss from amaths..
meanwhile,going bonkers with hairy-sha-shaa.(x
so after he dismissed,
we went to bedok macs..
talked bout some stuff..
"thrashed things out"..
used internet with his phone..
well,MAIN POINT IS,
we had time to spend tgt..
im just really happy for that.=]
hmm so he sent me home before returning to his own home..=]
sadly,
got home,and my kitchen was flooded by sewage water again...
so i totally had to like clean up again..
damn shitty stink smell luh..
omg.lucky not my first encounter.
otherwise,i could have gone beserk.(x
quickly called dad and jie home..
so we all cleared up tgt..
my feet were like all wrinkled..
arms so tired after that.
but i still decided to go for a run in the park.
so i ran around 2.4km..
got home within half an hour.
just jogging.
came home with apple-like face colour.xP
kneecap hurting like mad.
and blisters on both feet.
im gonna die wearing sch shoes tmr man.
zzz.its located near the sole of my feet sumore sia..
damn pain when i walk uh.
but i have to endure right?
hahas.
so im really happy today.

hey dar..
im really glad to be yours again..
I Love You=]
thank you for all your unconditional love towards me,
your care,concern and protection.
the sense of security you ensure me with.
thank you for all you've done for me.
i really love you.
and im most fortunate to attain yours.(=

2009-09-16T22:43:00.003+08:00

humm..i really got to say sorry..
sorry to the guy whom i love..
im sorry for breaking..
i totally hurt you..
sorry for being a coward.
sorry for not holding on.
but when i made the decision to break,
then did i realised how i would be without you..
on monday,
i didnt dare to face you in tuition..
so i wanted to go to our "lao di fang"..
and somehow reminisce on our memories..
our sweet memories there..
when you told me you were going there too,
i was afraid.
i didnt dare to meet you.
i got there..
this time,
i didnt take the usual route..
walked from a different way..
when i got there,
i was looking around..
thinking if you would be there.
but i didnt see you anywhere around.
surprisingly,
i wasnt feeling relieved.
instead,
i felt disappointed.
so i sat at a place we've nvr sat tgt before..
i brought bearbear in my bag..
after i sat down,
i just opened my bag and hugged bearbear..
then,
i saw you running down from tuition thr..
you were looking and running everywhere for me..
even though i didnt pick up over 20 of your calls..
you looked really anxious..
as much as i didnt pick up your calls,
you still continued calling again and again..
im sorry for missing all the calls..
when i saw you,
i wanted to run.
but my legs just wouldnt let me.
i tried hiding from you..
stupidly stuffing my head into my bag with bearbear.
but in the end,
you found me.
we cried.
like alot.
but i didnt cry as much when you were with me.
when i saw you leave me,
my heart was stabbed.
stabbed through and through.
i bursted out in tears.
i just cried out like mad..
didnt even know if people were staring or smth.
i tried pulling myself together,
picked myself up and walked on.
but as i walked the path we always walked together,
i broke down..
like all the way out.
cried out.
like some drama..
i've never done that before..
i was really hurt.
and i cant believe i beared to hurt you so badly.
i totally wanted to execute myself.
i hated myself.
when you texted me:"i think tonight was useless bah.and i think i made it worse.."
i thought about it.
yesterday,
after school,
you sent me home..
at my doorstep,
we just waited and waited for each other to respond..
we both wanted each others' baobao..
and we did..
after you left,
i thought and thought and thought..
at night,
i cried again.
but after that,
i realised how much i love you and how much you mean to me,
and your great significance in my life..
i wanted to go back to you..
just as much as you wanted me to return to your side..
so i offered to make breakfast for you..
hmm so we met in canteen this morning..
i know you were shocked when i called you that.^^
and im glad you understood what i meant.
I LOVE YOU MY DEAR.
im glad to be under your love,care,concern and protection.
im sorry,and i truly love you.
im glad i didnt run away.
im really happy you found me.
you really touched me with your love for me.
I LOOOOOOOOOVE YOU.n.n

2009-09-16T22:19:00.002+08:00

humm.
changed my blogskin yet AGAIN.
btw,i finally linked and relinked all the people ler..
sorry for the delay!
im bored..
want sleep..
cant sleep..
want smile..
cant smile..
want laught..
cant laugh..
so smart right?
forget it.
just stepping into reality.
story of my life.=]

2009-09-16T20:24:00.002+08:00

i really just want to be fully happy for a whole day.
is that too much to ask?
or is just being happy for a while all i can ask for?
i dont know.
i already knew my life is screwed.
yet i still bother trying to make things right,
and make things better.
i've seriously need to get the 'BEST ACTRESS AWARD'.
i guess all i can say is,
jiayou bah mel. =]

2009-09-12T12:13:00.001+08:00

i seriously feel that im a super good actress.
feelings are "easily" hidden.
stuffing all the pain into myself.

2009-09-12T10:32:00.002+08:00

man,what's becoming of me?
i cry everyday.
every night.
and now,
i cry in the morning.
the worse thing is,
everyday, im thinking of the two choices.
and yet,i cant get to a decision im a hundred percent happy with.
i seriously wish i couldnt feel a thing.
maybe except happiness.
that is,IF i still can attain happiness.
actually,i think its quite impossible.
frankly,
screw love.
be it parental love,friends love,or love love.
i really am at a lost.
screw it.

2009-09-09T21:47:00.002+08:00

heyheyho!
hmm today finally got out of the hse and went out=]
went to bugis today..
met enwei [CLOUD] today for the first time.
lol i thought guys and people older than me tend to be late when meeting up..
so i decided not to leave early and be thr just on time.
zzz in the end,like just after one,
enwei msged me and told me he was reaching ler sia.
so shocked.hahas
so when i got thr,
started to look for some boney and skinny guy wearing jeans.
couldnt find lor..
thn msged him whr is he..
HE WAS HIDING IN A BLIND SPOT/CORNER.
lol how you expect me to find you ar?
i not mind reader you know?xP
so yeah,when we first met,
SUPERR paiseh de can?
like totally nvr talk much luh.
so thn waited for his friends joey and eatsham to come..
lol he ask them come along so wont be so awkward..
at first they wanted go tcc de..
but realised the environment not very "conducive" uh..
thn they started joking around..
so i finally understood what enwei meant when he said they super interesting.
hahas.
in the end we went macs to "study"..
enwei ate lunch thr..
lol today totaly nvr eat anything until i went home for dinner sia.
thn after sitting outside for an hr plus,
inside finally have space..
so we went in to study..
lol lucky they all sec fours..
i super a lot of maths questions dunno how to do de can?
hahas.so asked them how to do..
joey was super quiet when she was into her chemistry studying de lor..
hearing music..
thn when enwei and eatsham try calling her,
keep cannot hear.
thn they use phone to msg and call her just to get her attention sia.
SUPER CUTE DE.=]
so they had alot of cold jokes..
so kinda laughed alot..
cheered me up alot too.
ENWEI:STOP CALLING ME SOMEONE AND SAYING I WAS VERY QUIET JUST NOW LA.
LOL.
ard 5.30,we stopped studying and go gai gai around..
"brought" enwei to MUJI in BHG.
lol our dear mountain tortoise d=never heard of MUJI before..
thn he keep saying "lets go mu ji[female chicken]"
zzz in a way making fun of my nick de lor..
lol.at muji,
i GOT MY MILKTEA AND MARSHMALLOWS.=D
and enwei bought the same marshmallows too.xP
hahas our mountain tortoise was gazing at everything in MUJI with FASCINATION.
hahas.when paying,he suddenly say he pay for me..
hahas so i didnt use money again..xP
THANK YOU ENWEI.=]
thn enwei said scared i tio robbed.
lol zzz
so he sent me home..
lol feel abit bad..
cos he have to send me all they way to bedok,
while his house is way back at TOA PAYOH luh.
so yeah,he took the train with me..
LOL we totally sepearated the minute we stepped in luh.
cos the train was SUPER CROWDED de can?
lol we dropped of at eunos..
thn waited for 60..
thn he sent me home=]
thanks enwei..=]
today was fun=]
had many good laughs=]
thanks enwei for intro-ing me to such fun ppl.
and thanks all three of you for making this day fun!xD

2009-09-08T20:32:00.002+08:00

my life?
screw it.
oh wait,
its already screwed.
i really wish my heart could be as hard as rock.
then,no matter how hard the implact inflicted,
it wouldnt hurt a single bit.
but why cant that just happen?!
why does my heart still ache?
why must the bleeding increase?
i've been trying to get over the fact that they do not accept me.
but why?
why is it that even MY OWN parents are doing this to me?!
i may be said to be pampered and spoilt.
but in jie's EIGHTEEN years,
never once,were you two not there!
but why mine!
and is only the FIFTEENTH year!
i just dont get it.
i really really dont.

2009-08-27T20:27:00.002+08:00

yoyoyo.
hahas.kinda high here.=]
imma happy girl.
its been a great week so far,
we're really treasuring our time together.
and in a way,
learning to truly treasure one another.=]
im glad we are.
hmm,getting closer day by day,
by the second..
i love you dar..
hmm 12 more days to our five months together..
this five months went pass so fast..
im glad we've gone through everything together.
every single obstacle..
like you said,
these obstacles will only make our relationship stronger right?
i'll hold on.
we'll hold on,TOGETHER.
I LOVE YOU.♥=]

2009-08-23T21:55:00.002+08:00

humm..
dar,i love you!=]
now we have same blogskin wor.xP
i miss you alot too..
really happy can see you tmr le.^^
im really happy to see your smiles too..
thats why i always want you to be happy.=]
weekends always seem REALLY long..
because you're not by my side..
but this week was better,
i got to see you on saturday..^^
and yeah,you are the only guy i love too wor..
hehe i hope we'll always be happy together.=]
I LOVE YOU MY DARDAR~❤

2009-08-14T22:48:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENJIAN dardar~ILY.♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARENCE![4 AUGUST]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AFIFAH HONEY![7 AUGUST]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEILUN ORANGE BALLOON![11 AUGUST]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEINI![11 AUGUST]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEARLYN![11 AUGUST]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHADRINA![13 AUGUST]
lol.super a lot of ppl b'day can?
lol but my dardar de most impt.xP
dar,hope you like the present i made and gave you..
and,sorry for making you upset in the afternoon..
didnt mean to make you angry and upset on your b'day de..
just try to rmb the happy things kay?
hmm.happy that can meet you at tuition there just now..
hahas.really missing you alot.
I LOVE YOU.♥

2009-08-11T18:09:00.002+08:00

im lucky today..
managed to NOT CRY in front of anyone..
seems like im still able to hold back my tears and emotions.
but whenever anyone reminds me of what happened,
i really feel like crying..
almost cried in front of hazel uh..
that stupid girl cried before me..hahas.xP
hais..i just really want to stop crying..
but i cant.
i myself cant even tell if im really happy in school..
as much as i was very "high" in sch today..
i dont even understand myself..
i just keep telling myself not to cry no matter what..
i managed to do it.
but as soon i got to be alone,
i broke down again..
why cant life be a bed of roses?
living in perfection and happiness every minute of life.
i myself made the decision to ask you to go home yourself and not wait for me.
and yet im feeling upset over that.
i know you cant send me home anymore.
i told you not to.
but im stupidly getting upset over what i told you to do.
its the only way to solve the problems at hand,
but its really heart-shattering.
living silently in agony.
not easy,
not easy at all.
im too used to always having you there anytime,
now everything changes,
im totally not getting used to it at all.
i know i have to learn how to accept it.
i know it,yet im not doing it.
or rather,im UNABLE to do it.
im only holding on for only one reason.
and that reason is that i love you.
i guess that reason alone is enough to let me hold on,
pull myself together and hang on throughout.

[i want to cry.im crying.yet i dont feel a single bit better.]

2009-08-10T21:09:00.003+08:00

this is totally not going well..
just came back from tamp & T1..
feel like crap now..
totally didnt enjoy myself..
walking around in fear.
fear of meeting THEM.
man,i'm going crazy.
like,literally mad.
i dont know how im supposed to be feeling now.
happy?[that we didnt break up]
or am i allowed to be upset and unhappy?
i really dont know how to face you in school tomorrow..
or rather,
i dont dare to.
im afraid i will just break down once i see you.
i admit now.
im no longer strong enough.
i've lost all my courage.
the courage to fake a smile and be happy in front of you.
i cant,as much as i want to,and wish to be able to.
i hope i wont cry in front of you..
i dont wish you to see my tears..
im afraid i MAY have to avoid you..
it will hurt a lot.
and i mean a lot.
im really at a lost.
i cant concentrate on anything.
i know you're hurting too.
but you can never imagine how much pain it is for me.
its worse.much worse.

i'm broken.my heart cannot be fixed.not anymore.

2009-08-10T12:48:00.005+08:00

my heart's shattered.
seriously.
just when i thought that it was starting to heal.
it broke again.
it was already full of wounds,stitches.
now all the wounds have been reopened.
and now there are new wounds.
its aching.
bleeding.
bleeding profusely.
i really thought i would have made that decision that would break us both.
but in the end,
i decided to hold on.
its going to be a really tough relationship from now on.
but i dont want to regret.
hopefully we'll both be strong enough.
but things are really going to be very different now.
everything's already changed.
it was the biggest scare i've ever been through.
this time,
i REALLY thought our relationship would end.
i felt that there was no other way,
no other choice other than ending everything.
everything we once had.
although we've decided to stay together,
in my heart,
i still have a feeling something will happen soon.
and that thing,would REALLY bring everything to an end.
how many MORE blows can this relationship take?
or maybe,how many more blows can I take?
i really dont know.
everything is all unstable now.
my mind is in a whirl,
i cant get my mind off you,
off what happened yesterday.
the thought of it stabs right into my heart.
stabbing again,again and again.
my heart is bleeding and is hurting.
this time,
i truly think that the wounds are never going to heal,
and the bleeding would just go on.

2009-07-31T17:44:00.002+08:00

hello everymeow~
dang.
seriously boring,
staying at home one whole week uh.
can die.
rather go to school.
cant even go for tuition.
whole world is asking me where i disappear to.
LOL.im still alive.not dead.
bet a lot of work is awaiting me in school.
many tests also.
oh well,at least i dont need to go for tmr's choir outdoor performance.
finally finished watching boys over flowers yesterday.
the ending quite nice.
but now nothing to watch already.=.=
lol.he just controlled my com.[remote control assistance]
now my turn to control his.
chao~

2009-07-24T22:46:00.002+08:00

...
what a week.
monday-good
tuesday-bad
wednesday-okay
thursday-okay
friday-bad.
wth is going on man.
im going mad.
like,seriously.
but i really wonder.
is this all my fault?
or yours?
why cant EVERYDAY be good.
and NO BAD.
no words to describe my feelings.

2009-07-18T22:12:00.002+08:00

hey boy.
we've been together for quite sometime.
there's been a lot of ups and downs..
but we're still holding on together..
i'm glad we are..
three month plus le..
although we cant really spend much time together,
but at least there are still times we can be together,
even if we could only be together for a short time each time.
and yesterday we can finally be together..
not being able together often has its benefits too.
it made us treasure the time we had together more.=)
i love you.i truly do.♥

2009-07-18T21:45:00.002+08:00

heyhey.
okay.
yesterday was SO MUCH better than today uh.
so i'm lovin' yesterday like,
SUPER A LOT.
FINALLY GET TO DO P.E.
played netball.
lol,got carried away and ended up playing through recess.
now im aching all over..xP
i totally screwed my damn chinese oral luh.
but,whatever luh.
don't care anymore.
after my turn,
waited ard an hour for him to end..
lol,he was the last in his grp.-.-
after he ended then we left sch..
we finally got to spend time together..
had the whole day together..
haha.
okay,lets talk a little about today..
tuition-ed the whole day..
i was totally freezing all the way through tuition luh..
especially chinese lesson,
was shivering luh..
got home,
went to grandma's place to see my gramp,
just got discharged from hospital.
but received some news..
~~my uncle passed away..~~
i guess he was suffering..
don't know if my aunt and my cousins are alright..
i hope they are..
hais,no matter what it is,
he will always live in our hearts.

2009-07-02T22:19:00.004+08:00

hello.
this week has been quite fun.
monday,
changed seating arrangement and changed timetable.
LOL.
lessons on monday:MT,chem,EL,AM,phy.
and guess what,
all the subjects' homework,
NOT COMPLETED,
good right?
lols.but i managed to get away.xP
after sch,
planned to go home first before coming back for AYG.
but saw heecheng alone in the canteen so decided to stay back all the way..
haha,in the end he went home himself.xP
charmaine bought us dinner.
so sweet of her laa,she keep asking us not to pay..
THANK YOU CHARMAINE SNG!.
haha,have to state surname.xP
ps,i abit high now.so talking abit crap.
so we crapped the whole night long.
and charmaine's tagline for the night was:
"please behave yourself in public."
and she kept repeating it so heecheng decided to just record it,
and replay it OVER AND OVER AGAIN.LOL
the AYG performance was quite nice..
but the rest was kinda draggy uh.-.-
sat with heecheng on the bus ride back to sch too.
reached sch ard 9.45pm..
decided to walk all the way out with heecheng to take bus tgt.xP
so we TALKED.
CHEER UP GERLFRIEND.I'LL BE HERE.LOVE YOU.<3
so got home ard ten plus..
SUPER TIRED.
tuesday was fine..
he sent me home..^^
felt like,
SO MUCH BETTER after that..
thank you..=)
wednesday..
lol went macs to study with fion..
made him go home himself..xP
today..
had tuition and he sent me home too.
super happy today.
I LOVE YOU.
we've been through a lot.
but that will only make us stronger right?
so i decided.
instead of crying every night,
i will be happy.
i promise you to be.
its MY promise to YOU.
don't forget your promise either kay?
i love you♥

2009-06-26T14:17:00.002+08:00

is this really how its going to end?
i don't want it to end!
i don't want to let them break us up!!
i think i've been over-reliant on you..
when it struck me that im going to lose you,
my heart shattered.
i was devastated.
it was as if my whole heart had left with you..
and now,im at a complete lost..
you havent said a word to me eversince that happened.
i don't know if you are going to give in to them..
are you?
are you going to listen to them and end what is called 'US'?
i really don't know..
and i'm really worrying for you,
are you hurt?
i really wish you aren't hurt..
my heart is crushed.
i've never loved someone THIS MUCH.
i've never cried so much over a guy.
cried this gravely.
are WE really going to end?
i have no clue..
not a single bit..
am i supposed to move on?
but can i?
i can't.i just can't.

2009-06-24T09:32:00.007+08:00

220609:Royal Scotts Hotel

random pic:chandelier-.-

another random shot:we were sitting beside a mirror.-.-

marmie & daddy.[dad keeps moving until i got impatient and just delivered the shot.]

okay,this was my favourite shot of the day.

mel & my jie,ally.[alyssa]

we were having fun alright.

THIS was the highlight.

waffle with honey base,

jam & mild whipped cream.

my dad made it.lol

i added the strawberry from somewhere else to make the shot better.=)

ally's guava pieces.

look at the amt of sour plum powder she put.

it was as if she would not be able to eat it again.xP

just another random shot.

my sis.

she didnt want to take the picture.

so she stuffed the spoon into the cam.xD

CUTE RIGHT?!'Cookie monster & Bert'=P

this was enhao's surprise b'day cake.

birthday boy.=)

all they wanted to do was STARE AT THE CAKE.

this pic was difficult to get okay?!
they were so engrossed with the cake they didnt bother bout this grp photo much.-.-

the cake looked horrendous much.

all of us just took cream with our fingers to cream each other.

which explains the state of the poor cake.xP

enhao after being creamed~

but he wiped off most ok it alrdy.T.T

this was at the hill-top shelter.=)

mel & miss.duck =X

it was SUPPOSED to be a normal photo of two guys.

but they end up looking gay.=X

random shot.MEL.=)

this photo and the next few was when we went down to the platform.

mel & enhao.my korkor.=P

wenjianMELenhao

enhaomiss duckMEL

wenjianenhao

MELenhao.lol i cant rmb who took the pic.

i think wenjian.=X

wenjianmelenhao.

i have no idea what enhao was doing though.xP

2009-06-23T23:04:00.002+08:00

yo.
today was quite fun.
lets alk about ytd and today.
YESTERDAY:
morning was quite plain..
boring..
afternoon,
ard two plus,
me n daddy left the hse to take the MRT to orchard rd..
met marmie and jie thr..
went to 'Royal Scotts Hotel' for afternoon high tea..xP
me and jie enjoyed the salmon sashimi a lot..
haha.and my fav of the day was the waffle..
haha.see the pics later.
after we left thr,
we went to shop around far east plaza..
managed to find vann's b'day present thr.
left thr ard 6.30.
went back home and went for tuition at 7plus.
haha,saw kim for the first time in ard two yrs?
tuition was quite mad.
me & him were kinda short circuit,
as said by him.
so he sent me home after tuition. n.n
TODAY:
morning was kinda boring as per usual.
getting rdy to go "study" with friends in the afternoon at the reservoir thr.
HE reached my place ard 12.40pm..
enhao and birdy came ard 1310,
and our dear ducky arrived at 1335.-.-
all walked to ntuc thr,
enhao bought his zhai mi fen.
ducky and i bought snacks.
then i treat all of them bbt.
except birdy,he dint want.
thn i chased the guys away so that me n ducky cld go buy enhao's cake..
the cake damn cute.[see pic]
surprised the birthday boy with the cake.
three ppl got creamed.
afifah went first,
enhao next,
then wenjian.
haha.washed up in the end.
"studied" till four plus.
thn me & him went to ntuc.
lol we cldnt decide what to buy,
in the end,
he bought me the white choc kinder bueno.xP
shared it with everyone..
haha.=D
after that we went up the "hill" the shelter thr..
took some weird pics.
thn went all the way down to the platform.
slacked thr.
played truth or dare.
lols.we had to do some ps stuff..
haha.but i had fun.
and im happy now.
thats all i can asked for.=)
left thr ard 6plus.
ll,this time,i "sent" him to the bus stop.
haha.he was rushing for time luh.
so i dont blame him.=)
im HAPPY.=0
i'll add pics in the next pic.
either later in the night or tmr morning yeah.
mel is HAPPY HAPPY AND HAPPY.
chao~

2009-06-23T09:21:00.002+08:00

school will be opening AS PER SCHEDULED.
lol.im bored.
meeting friends ard 1pm..xP
our "study grp".
me,enhao,jiahao,afifah,fion,wenjian.=)
hopefully the table is big enough.
if not,have to split.-.-
and,btw,
HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY ENHAO!
HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY LEXAYYE!
lol,the two of them have the same birthday,
have fun ppl.=)
chaao~

2009-06-21T15:12:00.003+08:00

morning went to vivo to shop around..
toast box.haha me & my sis bought daddy a mudpie to surprise him.xP

my darling parents.=)

me & my jie.=D

then we went to 'Dian Xiao Er' for our brunch..

jie and daddy..

me & marmie..

our lunch..ps,i took the photo after everyone started eating..xP

saw this fossil fish exhibit at 'National Geographic'.
usual price:$24,000
special sale:$18,000 -.-

okay,my wardrobe is srsly MUCH NEATER now.
haha.bought the black foldable rack from ikea that day with my mum.

the stuff toys in my wardrobe.xP

beloved elmo & mr.stripes..xD

the stuff toys on my bed..
dear ee-yore looks exceptionally big.-.-
haha.

2009-06-21T15:07:00.003+08:00

yo.
im at my gramps hse now.
all the way at clementi.-.-
im SO GLAD i brought my lappy along.
im gonna be bored to death if i didnt.
haha.
anw,woke up ard nine this morning.
went to vivo ard 10.30am
hehe shopped and shopped.
BOUGHT MINI GUMMY BEARS AND AUSTRALIA CHIPS FROM CANDY EMPIRE.=P
marmie bought me two shirts and a black shorts thr..
managed to convince her to buy for me cos,
I LACK OF CLOTHES.
yay,also because all having sale now laa.
haha.im so happy now. n.n
at least im happy now.
post pics next.=)
chao~

2009-06-20T19:53:00.002+08:00

...
finally i find the songs..
need to ask someone to sownload for me lerh..
kinda moody today.
everything bad happened today.
starting from the way i woke up.
everything just went wrong today.
except now?
feel like crap.
after e.maths tuition,
totally had no mood to go for chinese.
so pon and went to the reservoir there..
initially wanted to go to platform..
but damn hot so end up sitting at THAT BENCH.
homeworked for an hour..
cried the whole second hr..
damn.argh.

2009-06-18T23:51:00.000+08:00

some things are going better than expected.
but some are totally turning for the worst.
i just dont know what to look towards to.
what to expect to happen next.
why.
why am feeling this way.
why does everything seem to be going wrong.
why.
why.
why.
what's going to happen to that friendship?
what lies ahead of me?
what other hits am i supposed to take?
or rather,how many hard knocks can i take till i really crumble?
i really don't know.
i really don't.
when did i start crying over trivial matters?
i never cried so easily?
never broke down.
never wept over physical pains.
but now?i do.
and im crying over really small things.
why?why?why?
whats becoming of me?
its like,what else can i do right?
just let out.
cry.weep.bawl.

why can't things ever be perfect

2009-06-18T23:40:00.001+08:00

today was a really happy day.
why am i feeling so NOT happy now..
because im listening to sad songs?
or is it that im missing so much in life?
i miss the memories..
i miss my seniors..
the fun we had in the last two years..
in fact,
i truly miss twoone.
im sure many many ex-twoonne oheight ppl wouldn't agree with me.
i mean,ive like heard half of them saying they love their new classes more and,
they prefer their new classes to two one oheight..
sometimes its quite sad to hear stuff like this.
but what can i do..
we call each other 'them' now.
no longer 'us'.
maybe that nvr even happened.
i cant remember.
no longer.
i cant even remember if anyone ever loved the old class.
everyone has changed.
some for the better.
some,i dont even know.
and some,i feel so stranger to them.
i guess what people say is true.
what's past is past.
and yet,
i just cant seem to accept that fact that the memories mean anything to most of us.
at least,i THINK some still remembers them.
maybe none.
maybe im just the only one.
i guess nobody cares anymore.
but i have no idea why im still hanging on.
everything is different now.
i just dont know why.
does this mean its time to move on?
i think it is.
but im not able to.
i just cant.
i dont know why.
maybe one day i'll say the same thing,
'i love my class more.more than two one.i dont miss two one AT ALL.'
just maybe.

2009-06-17T11:57:00.000+08:00

dang.
im so dead.
its the third day of the third week and i havent completed a single subject's hw.
im trying to start on eng.
but only can find one article.
damn.wdh luh hv to write a full page of reflection sia.
like,what can we say?!
and have to write two somemore.-.-
my maths is like whad,
two questions done?
chinese not even looked at.
physics left with section C,
i dont ev en hv the chem assignment.
history not done.duh.
im like dead.
seriously,im gonna die.
the worst thing is,
i still dont feel like doing it.
ARGH.

2009-06-16T23:26:00.000+08:00

seriously,
why do you always do this to me?
you treat me well,
then you hate me and start ranting at me,
next minute,
you're nice to me,
and now,
i know ive hurt you.
but you're really playing with my feelings here!
do you know that?!
WHY.
if you hate me,
just hate me.
dont love me,hate me,love me,
and hate me again.
im sorry if i sound agitated.
btu im really tired.
you're not the only one.
i already have enough to go through.
and this is not helping at all.
NOT A BIT.
please.
take it that im begging you.
PLEASE.

2009-06-16T16:20:00.000+08:00

hellohello.
i am bored.
so i changed my blogskin and made a photo collage.=)
gonna make another one.
this time,
i'll make with the tp pics.
chao~

2009-06-10T15:01:00.000+08:00

this picture was random.
enhao took it.xP

haha,we were working,
then we decided to take pictures with the balloons.

fion & her yellow balloon.

she asked for a pic with the red one.

look at how happy she is.xP

popo's b'day cake..

haha.58 years old le..

still young ouhkay..

me,my sis,popo & lachlan[cuz]

i guess since there's only three of us[cousins],

we were very bored.haha.

thats whr this pic came about.xP

2009-06-10T14:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY FIFTEENth BIRTHDAY SHERRIE GOH LI XUAN.
omg,i cant believe you are that old already.xP
just kidding.=)
okay,first week of hols is over..
monday:
went back sch in the afternoon for social etiquette course..
conducted by vanishaa's mummy-mrs.regina.
tuesday:
helped out for sec one's MOTHER TONGUE DAY.
after that,went to tm with
ZHEN,CARISSA & "IPOH BIRDY".
zhen is now worse than a vegetarian.
she cant eat anything except fruits.
not even moo moo milk!
sad gerl.xP
so ya.
we went to the foodcourt at tm..
saw tengkang,minjie,davin,liping,sokshan,jane thr.
thn after lunch we went to watch movie..
haha.xP
watched night at the museum 2..
damn funny luh..
haha.the jonas brothers cherubs were damn cute!
me n carissa's favourite characters.haha
the monkeys were damn cute too.
but nth could beat the "evil weirdo birds" which came around the end of the show.
haha.so mr birdy,
YOU ARE NOT FROM IPOH.
YOU ARE FROM EGYPT.
lol.so now we all know,
our dear mr birdy is from EGYPT.
ahahahaha~
after movie,
walked around a little,
then went home..
wednesday:
slack at home.
then decided to get birdy n haohao out..
so went bedok inter with them..
borrowed a chinese bk from lib..-.-
sian.
thursday & friday:
work at expo-motherhood exhibition.
thurs with STEFFI.
fri with FION LAU.
saturday:
TUITION & MORE TUITION.
while fion & nat worked..xP
night time celebrate popo b'day..
sunday:
worked at expo again..
this time with wenjian..=)
after fang gong,
went dinner at tm then go home..^^
pictures next..

2009-06-03T17:23:00.001+08:00

one more thing,
TP so feels like home..
going back to bgss is so different..
i miss tp..
and the times we spent there..

2009-06-03T17:16:00.000+08:00

Oh my tian.
the holidays are boring,
and i miss TP.
tp was really fun..
hais,holidays are like,
SIAN,SIAN AND MORE SIAN.
*ouch.feet still hurts..T.T
damn,lucky tmr working..
hopefully my feet dont hurt that much tmr..
otherwiser im seriously DEAD.
lol.i am damn bored..
hais.currently using two lappys at a go..xP
going to watch my korean drama again.-.-
chao~

2009-05-24T14:03:00.001+08:00

hello evrymeow~
im bored.
yesterday was fun & sweet..^^
went clarke quay flea market after e.maths tuition..
eight of us.
gerls:nicole,rishon,lexayye,mel
guys:guohao,elvin,nasha,wenjian
lols,when the gerls did the shopping,
the guys had to like wait for us for i dunno how long.
haha.nicole & laxayye bought a lot.
rishon dint but any,i bought two long shirts.=)
then we went to central market to slack..
rishon wanted to but sticky sweets so we all bought..
'he' paid for mine..xP
then we went to the so-called "food court" to sit around..
left around seven plus..
LOL we had to climp 90 steps down to the MRT station luhh.
haha
we were all laughing cos each time we finished one flight of stairs,
it felt so never-ending.LOL
took MRT to eunos station..
nasha wanted to buy mr.bean buns..
then they saw their primary sch friend terence there..-.-
i felt so out of place.
out of all of us,
nicole,wenjian,nasha n terence were all ex-tkps-ians.
imma ex-dps-ian.
diao.so extra liddat,
then we all take bus 60 home..
i reached my place ard 8.40..
but only got in the hse at 10++
diaos.haha.
ytd was really sweet & simply enjoyable.=D
ouhkay,TODAY,
had to wake up early to attend church service..
then after church service,
family went to 'yum cha' at chinatown for brunch..
after breakfast went to takashimaya.lol
went thr to collect my dad's belated b'day present and mummy's hairclip replacement.
then went home..
damn tired.
later evening still have to go clementi gramp's hse to celebrate grandpa's b'day..
SHAGSHAGSHAGSHAG.
chao~

2009-05-22T23:17:00.000+08:00

im crying.i just am.
it sucks.
feeling this way,
when you feel everything you do is wrong.
when all your feelings are mixed up and screwed.
when all thoughts are saying one thing.
i'm an idiot,i'm an idiot,i'm an idiot.
everything i do is wrong.
nothing goes right.
it just ends up wrong.
i at a loss.
i don't know what to do.
i don't know where to go from here.
i don't know how to make up for the things i've supposedly done.
it seems i don't know anything.
i guess i'm really an idiot.
and a bitch at that too.
unforgivable,aren't i?

2009-05-21T22:12:00.000+08:00

~~im sorry.i really am.i know i've hurt you.~~
i know you hate me.at least you've made me really believe you do.
i dont want to lose a friend.furthermore,a close friend.
it was all so sudden..the sudden coldness,
the sudden ignorance,the sudden tone in voice..
the sudden change.
i really dont know what to do now..im at a lost of what to do anymore.
you won't let me make it up to you,you won't even let me know what i did wrong..
i know you'll say i only can say this,but i really am,
i really am sorry.i'm sorry.
i'm sorry for hurting you.
i'm sorry for doing whatever i did.

2009-05-08T22:21:00.000+08:00

hello evry meow.
-depressed-
im so gonna flung my mid-years luhh..
sian.
english paper one:okok
english paper two:suck like crap.
wth,paper two was about martians and the red planet.-.-
chinese paper one:okok
chinese paper two:not bad..quite passable..xP
chinese paper three:not sure ehh..-.-
e.maths paper one:suck like siao.
miss koh said emaths paper one only 7 ppl pass luh.
e.maths paper two:much better than paper one..but still have a few difficult questions..T.T
a.maths paper one:half easy,half difficult..-.-
a.maths paper two:not very well done..hais.
social studies:not enough time...-.-
history elective:not bad..most likely can do quite ok..^^
pure geography:sucked.i studied & memorise EVERTHING ON RIVERS.stupid MEANDERS came out instead.
sub chemistry:not bad..shld be quite okay..
sub physics:go die la.difficult like siao.i think im like gonna get less than 20/70?crap sian.
damn depressed luhh.
so many things are happening in my life again..-.-
when can i EVER be carefree and smile when i mean it man?
screwed life.

2009-04-25T10:48:00.000+08:00

my uncle b'day cake..

uncle jon & cake..

me,uncle jon & jie

haha,jie hair so messy..xP

my papa's b'day cake..

mummy & daddy..=)

me,daddy & jie..=)

another pic..

okay,someone drew this.

NICE RIGHT?!like pro draw de.haha.xP
kk,gtg meet nicole.

chao~

2009-04-25T10:40:00.000+08:00

hello everymeow!
first things first.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNT ROKON![11thAPRIL]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNCLE JONAL![17thAPRIL]
HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY JIEYI![23rdAPRIL]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!ILY![24thAPRIL]
AND...
CHEERS TO VOX BRILLIANCE FOR CLINCHING A SILVER FOR SYF 2009!=D
so there has been LOADS of things to be happy about..
of course there are others..
but those are PERSONAL.
haha.
im really high now.
although i slept at 3am.
but i had six hrs of slp..
good enough.LOL
many things had happened this week..
both good and bad.
but all the GOODs covered up for the BADs.
so im fine.
i guess everything is falling into place now.
i should be rejoicing now.
but i have to buck up on my studies man.
i have to fall into SERIOUS MUGGING.
haha,gtg.
post a few pics first.

2009-04-21T20:36:00.000+08:00

hello people.just here to revive my blog abit..
one pic for this post.
i baked cookies!
so glad it was a success..
mel teo n mel lim first attempt and success.
here's all the cookies we made..

nice right?!
haha.
chao~

2009-04-12T14:41:00.000+08:00

i am bored.
i seriously am.
early morning wake up..
travel to clementi..
go "sao mu"..
then now at my grandma place..
damn sian sia..
i wanna go bedok inter but some stuff..
hais,sian..
no time!!!
damn sian..ytd go choose design for new specs..
thursday going to collect after tuition..-.-
can someone like,
entertain me?
i am seriously bored to death.
later evening still have to go another place..
DAMN SIAN!
then dint get to go my tuition just now sumore..T.T
hais.

2009-04-10T17:00:00.000+08:00

hello everymeow~

im being random at the moment..

someone will know.xP

im REALLY BORED.

cant even sign in msn..

the connection here very lousy..

now at my aunt's hse..

all the way at buono vista seh..

sians.i wish i can go for tuition this sunday..

just now had to squeeze at the back of the seven seater..

so damn squeezy..

then there was one part had to jeep turning de lorhhs..

felt like puking after that sia..

later go home have to go through the same thing again lehhs..

i really want someone to talk to..

the whole day i felt like crying in school..

so damn stressed..

confirm gonna fail my chem mock test,

2009-04-10T10:07:00.000+08:00

ello..im gonna post pics today..

earth hour..convinced my whole family to go to changi beach..

me & my aunt..

our new choir gown..

[left to right]

matilda,zihan,me,xichun,wanru

victoria concert hall full-dress rehearsal..

top row:me & natasya

bottom row:linhui & bixuan

me & natasy

matilda & me

wan ru,mat & me

jieling,ming min & me..

my darling juniors.=D

natasya & me..[AGAIN]

candid shot one.

candid shot two.^^

after finish rehearsal..

me & jane.

me,jane & fiona.

YS kor & me.after i got back from sch..